Log Entry 19:10 06/31
Subject: Zenton Kavash
Location: Private quarters

The drone flickers to life showing a hooded figure sitting in a chair directly in front of the camera drone. He raises his hands to his hood as he settles into a seat in front of the drone. Lowering the hood a bruised face is revealed from under the hooded robe.

Curse me going to Babylon Gardens, curse me for not just staying away like I should have instead of getting into a fight with her. I didn't go there for a fight but I didn't avoid one either. There she sat with Raphael, Koronakesh and... Vlad Cretes someone who I had thought she despised. A rather elusive Minmatar man waved me over when he saw me. We talked for a little while before he headed over to the bar, I took the moment to lock down my ship for the evening. Upon returning I ventured to the bar and let my presence be known. After a while it was down to me and Shalee and Raphael, she tried to explain that her and saint had been assigned to her as some sort of Partner project. But... honestly I don't believe her, I'm sure if I ask'd Mitara I'd find that Shalee was telling a lie.

He rubs his forehead slightly trying to recall events from the night but they had started to jumble together from all the alcohol he drank after he was left alone.

Then I did something stupid and called her by her last night as I left, I knew that she would be annoyed with it, I've been upset with her since the other night in Pax when she said we needed to take a break, she publicly revealed the fact that I applied to Ghost Festival, and then the mischief with Raphael... Then we started to argue again in front of Raphael. I really don't know where this is going to end. She seemed pretty certain that she doesn't need me anymore.

How has it come to this when did we start to harbor such ill feelings towards each other the other night outside of Pax she fell into my arms outside of the lounge and we returned to my ship before I set off to join Deus Imperiosus Acies forces in Aset. It seemed like something is going on something she can't or won’t tell me. Oh Shalee what’s happening with you what can't you tell me?

Log Entry 19:10 06/21
Subject: Zenton Kavash
Location: Classifed DIA Command

Begin Recording

So much has happened over the past few weeks. I've been far too busy to keep this log up to date, not really sure where to start... Halmah.

It started with a urgent message from Veshta Yoshida in the militia channle reporting that Halmah's control bunker was vulnerable to Minmatar assault. The call to arms was issued and militia forces scrambled to defend the system. It wasn't enough the TLF forces overwhelmed us and manged to take the system. I still remember the feeling that I felt in my heart when we got the message that the tribal's had taken the bunker. Disgust, guilt, anger... it shook me to the very core of my beliefs.

The feelings lasted a long time and I gave up what restraint I had... I started to fire on any vessel even suspected to be supporting the Minmatar. I destroyed two neutral rifter pilots that entered a complex being held by an Amarrian fleet, podding one of them. Followed by a few more suspected spies.

I took part in the reclamation efforts of the Halmah system, I earned the prestigous rank of Divine Commodore within the Militia for my actions. Although I wasn't present when we did retake the system, the knowledge of us having reclaimed it eased my feelings but has not erased them... no the feelings will not go away until every Minmatar system has been brought under an Amarrian banner once again.

Shalee... I've missed her terribly since I left Praetoria nothings been quiet right without being able to talk to her and see her everyday. Now with Invelious's new orders I'll probably see her even less if at all for a while. Don't really know how I'll manage it but I must its for the good fo the empire. She's started to develop into a fine young officer of the Praetoria. Still new to the ways of capsuleer combat but experience, and instincts aren't honed overnight.

Picking up a picture of her from the table he looks at it for a moment before setting it down. He stands and walks away from the recording device. The image of the him and the room goes out of focus before it goes completely dark.

End Recording

So I spent the night in the Basilica I don't know why I probably shouldn't be their after all the things I have done since I left Praetoria. I still find it soothing and its a place where I can keep up with my old friends... well the ones that wish to keep in contact with me anyway. Others like poor Mitara;

"Why!?
You had a promising career infront of you!
and you threw it away for what cheep thrills?"

I believe the Captain sees my resignation as a direct betrayal of the her. She always did hold me in high regard maybe a little too high. After her words she spit at my feet and stormed out of the Basilica not really giving me a chance to speak too much.

I spent the rest of the evening speaking with Jhaelee and Darius who we're both concerned with how Shalee is taking everything... I'll need to speak with her. The last thing she needs to do is something that will get her into trouble I heard she had already visited someplace of ill-refute is the word PIE would use.

Tonight I'll see if I can sneak to Inis, and message Shalee.

activate log

The recording show Zenton sitting in a chair facing the recording drone. The room is dark not giving any clues as to where he is.

So Piracy, I used to be against it down to my very core. I don't know what provoked me to do it but I engaged in it the other day, I destroyed a Omen. The person I was flying with grabbed his pod and destroyed it as well. I enjoyed the fight, the kill everything about it. Is this only the start of something I cannot control? God help me I hope not.

I really only have one person to turn to, Shalee but I've made her pretty upset understandably with my confession of it to her. She's really the only one that has a chance of understanding shes been through so much I'm sure if anyone can help it will be her. But I'm conflicted about laying any burdon on her. She doesn't deserve it she's been through too much as it is.

looking away for a moment before continuing.

I asked Larzah to assist Captain Newelle with a TLF pilot, he assured me he would but I've not heard anything back about it from him. I suppose I will ask the Captain tonight what happened if I do not hear from him.

end log.

Its been far to long since I've wrote anything here. Just haven't been able to find the time between being in pod and planet side duties.

So whats happened... Well I've started to be lax in my Militia duties thus far I don't think anyone's noticed to much. Nothing seems to chance if I help out as much as I did or not. I find my time more enjoyable spending it scouring the other side of Wormholes for sleepers or just general exploring thanks to my friend Larzah who's been providing me with locations of sites to explore.

Spent the night with Shalee on Inis, apparently she told Garst everything the other night in the Basilica, and he hit her! Luckily for him she told me far enough away that I couldn't just outright find him... Though she made me swear not to be mad, I don't think that worked I am still upset over it.

Beaux, hes still considering turning to the darker side of New-Eden once he trains for his recon, I think he wishes me to join him... I'll admit I did some stealing in a wormhole the other day. It did get the blood pumping, god forgive me I think I may have even enjoyed it. I need to think... pray.

the journal entry ends abruptly

The anniversary it was today... I can't believe its been a year since the elder fleet. Seems like so much less time has passed, but I guess the days just sort of meld together on the front a constant mix of tactical and strategic superiority.

Well I participated in the Golden Fleet which went into Rens, our intelligence might have been a little off with as to how powerful the enemy non-capsuleer navy vessels are but never the less we delivered our speeches, our messages of god to the heathan system.

Rodj blake spoke first, then Admiral Grr, both speeches were heard over all the local frequences. I hope the words of a couple of our finest leaders will sink in amongst even just a few of them and our mission will not have been in vain. Every soul redeemed is two fold, another ally, and one less enemy.

Shalee came to Paradise, we talked for a littlewhile I passed on Captain Newelle's appology. The Captain she seems so stretched maybe the war is finally getting to her I don't know. I don't really want to think about it at all. After a littlewhile Lieutenant Garst came by he called Shalee over and talked about something I wasn't trying to pay too much attention figure Shalee will tell me if she feels I need to know. After they finished they called me over and we enjoyed a bottle of wine, with one of the newer ensigns in Praetoria, Jhaelee. Sort of odd... but she seems harmless enough.

Terminate log.

Paradise... why did I go to paradise this morning. It was quiet but that all changed Laerise came in, still nothing wrong with that we had a little bit of pleasant conversation, or at least it started pleasant enough I don't think I've had to fight harder to let her know what I thought of what she was saying.

"There is love .. and there is marriage, they do not have to be the same."

What? how can she say that.. honestly love should be the building block that paves the road to marriage not someone who just does it because it would be what helps

"I know of more than one happy arranged marriage."

Arranged marriage how can they be happy... for every one happy one there must be half a dozen if not more that at least one of the people are completely miserable. I don't even understand. how Laerise could begin to talk about this especially since her and Chase are in love. She cant even see the other side of it.

"And unlike Mitara I'm not going to suggest a marriage unless it is beneficial to your houses. There is love .. and there is marriage, they do not have to be the same."
"love and marriage do not have to correlate."

I was so frustrated by this point, I would never be in an arranged marriage, god knows my mother has tried several times. I would have sooner married a plank of wood then the 'women' if you can call the robots she choose that. Also as if we would even need her to 'suggest' that we should married if we choose too... if and when I marry it will be for love, out of love even, it will not be because "someones of a suitable background". I have made my mind up on that.

Anyway... enough ranting and raving about that. After all this 3rd shift got a little interesting I started a fleet operation with pilots from the Order of Silence again, Was Shalee, Larzah, Lyradex, and Ves, and myself. We didn't find much sadly but we did manage to jump a bellicose on a gate and took it down pretty quick. Other then that we closed a few plex's and stood down for the evening. Hopefully tomorrow will bring us more action I really wish to continue to practicing my fleet commanding, as Laerise said before we got onto the topic of marriage. "Every fleet commander is worth their weight in gold." lets hope so.



Terminate log.